fact

love doesn't have to be earned.

Just hormones?

Is it that simple?

the right time

You meet the people you meet, when it's time for you to meet them. 

And 'you always meet twice'. 

So...

...this is everything?

[Natalie Merchant - Motherland]

We have the perfect life

Once I've chosen as my motto 'the best thing that you can do is take, whatever comes to you; and if you can't laugh, then smile'. It's from - what a surprise - S, a line out of a PT song called 'time flies'. Maybe I forgot a bit about it and that's sad, because it tells everything you need for a happy life actually. I have the perfect love, the perfect life. Sometimes I'm blinded by some bygone ideas and sometimes my emotions hang on to something I once was longing for but what's so unimportant right now; things like when and how we're gonna get married or how and where we're gonna live... I once had dreams about those things, but why should I hold on to something so absolutely that does not fit in my relationship now? Why are we thinking about all the things that we don't have and that don't work out the way we wanted them to and not take the moment, the beautiful moment where everything's perfect at its heart?
I made a decision today: I will take whatever comes to me and I will try to laugh and if I can't laugh, I will smile at least. Because relating to the things that really matter, I have the perfect life. A wonderful, healthy family, lovely friends and the best man on my side I could've ever wished for. He's so not what I thought I need but that's just what I really need. Life's too short to overlook the beauty in front of you, cause time flies... so I'll live the moment with all my heart and soul. I like that idea a lot. (:

London♥. Once again...

... hoping for a next chapter in my personal fairytale. Not sure if it has a happy end this time, maybe I became way too relaxed. As long as I'm afraid of catastrophes they don't happen (most of the time) and - as always - the moment I let go of it, think positive and trust in life, someone /something shows me, that I SHOULD be afraid indeed. We'll see how it turns out in 48 hours. I'll see.
At least my heart's totally stayed where it belongs to: home. Heart is, where my home is. K♥

Dear Heart...

... would you mind staying with me?
There are some little creatures in my chest trying to rip my heart out. At the same time I have the perfect life at home... it's a two-worlds-thing indeed. Not sure if I want to realize it that much again. About to cry but have to be brave. Brave little girl in a little happy world. But I know that there's no other way, whatever I would do. And pain will be over in a few days. And London's coming nearer every day. Six months. I went through much more time. Miss you ❤S